Major Meltdown or Harmones

There are no pictures to go with this post, thank goodness.
Dawn and Rachael got a good laugh.
Monday, started out as one of those really bad days that you never want to have.
I am somewhat harmonal once in awhile but more frequently of late.
My eyes popped open, my head was screaming, and I was really, really angry. All signs that I was not myself. I am aware of it, believe me. No one had even talked to me yet. On these kinds of days I try to stay away from everyone.
As I related my day to them from my point of view they laughed and laughed. Dawn said I should watch episode 99 of I love Raymond.
I have not watched it yet, but I am really grateful that my husband just listened and listened. Sadly everyone in my house got landed. I had tried really hard all day to remain calm through a variety of challenges, and finally at 5 pm sent my children home away from me while I turned off my phone and spent 2 hours at Costco walking some of my energy off.
Didn't work. I went home and after that vomit just came out of me.
Some days a good sedative would be helpful. Just enough to sleep 24 hours. Maybe then I could live with myself the day after.
Yesterday my husband took me on a date. I said I was sorry again and he said already forgotten. I do love him even though he is not perfect and for some reason I feel the need to remind him on those bad days. I am less perfect and still learning. I really am looking for a good sedative. Last time I let someone mess with my harmones, it turned into a worse nightmare.